A call for love

Take me love to lands anew
Traveling rough, the fro and to
Of nature’s waters, or in the air
With heavy breaths we travel there

Take me softly across the land
Near bubbling streams you hold my hand
The water’s chuckles we echo clear
As you hold me closer, hold me near

Take me in what way you choose
Just take me soon, no time to lose

Passion leads to purpose, a thoughtful post

I read this as the very first post for today on wordpress and I found myself unable to continue. It had me caught in place and very much pondering the short message. It was a quote from Bishop T. D. Jakes about finding your purpose. Purpose is something I have been searching for and at a loss for how to find in my life. I long to have a reason for existing, something that drives me forwards and can be broken down into aims, goals and targets. I have irritated my husband with my constant searching for purpose; trying a few different things and finding a glimmer of purpose within my work at a charity shop, but this is not enough to make me feel truly satisfied.

According to Bishop T. D. Jakes I should look at my passion to lead me to my purpose, this sounds like great advice except I cannot think of any passions. Dictionary.com defines passion as ‘any powerful or compelling emotion or feeling, as love or hate.’ I love my husband with passion but when it comes to activities or hobbies I am not so intense with my feelings. I do not feel myself compelled to do one thing above all else or an overpowering drive to do one hobby more than any other.

I have things I like but I can live without them. For example I enjoy and get satisfaction and achievement from writing, but I am not passionate about it and often go many weeks between writing (as my blog clearly shows). There is no compulsion or drive to write each day, just an enjoyment when I do manage to create something I feel is well written or creative. So for me writing isn’t a ‘passion’ but a firm hobby and possibly the closest thing I might come to a passion.

So what then should be my passion and where can I look for it? Instead of inspiring me it seems the post has simply added more questions so I searched online for the sermon from which the quote is from and found that Bishop T. D. Jakes goes on to say

“Step into the field of your dreams. Even if you have not landed on the thing, at least get in the territory of the thing you are dreaming to do.”

He says that many feel like me; that there are no passions in their life but In order to feel you need to be exposed and that we must get out of the boat and experience a new thing. It seems I need to keep searching by experiencing life and try find my passion and my purpose. This might mean trying to broaden my experiences to gain a wider view on life. Like an arrow being drawn back, I need to first take that step back and find my target.

I admit to a reluctance in searching for his original sermon as I was brought up a Christian but no longer believe. I often find that Christians use many short quotes as a quick one liner but without unpacking what it means or how you might go about applying that to life. Yet they throw those little lines out at me as if some great sounding line will make me stop and turn my life back to God. But its just a phrase with no substance or knowledge and suddenly they talk about the weather or a TV show, they don’t follow it up they don’t explain the underlying currents it’s just a line. So with that rant and back history you can maybe see why I was so hesitant to look up the Bishop who it seems is very often quoted with his snazzy little lines that are easy to remember and bandy about.

I then got a bit hooked on listening to a few of his sermons and at one point he challenges us to let go of our history for

‘If you hold on to your history at the expense of your destiny.’

Now Oprah at this point responds with ‘That hit me, that just hit me.’ Well I would have to agree, for me it makes sense but it is much harder when you unpack and try to apply this to life.

Who can honestly say they don’t worry about something that is in their past or that they aren’t in some way holding on to their ‘history’? For me I still haven’t learnt to fully let go of my old self from before getting ill with Fibro and that old self haunts me and tells me I am useless and I can’t do things and I will never find a purpose. My old life is always held up in comparison to where I am now. But don’t we all do this; Hold up where we were to see where we have come?

I think all of us wish to progress in our lives and feel that we are not in the same place we were five years ago or one year ago or even a month ago. I want to feel I have achieved something in my life but I am comparing myself to a very different version of myself (One without the illness); this type of contrast does not help me progress forwards and does not lead me to a purpose. I am stuck looking backwards and not focusing on where to go. So I can understand what Bishop T. D. Jakes is saying about letting go of that past but the actual applying is a much harder task then a snappy line like that first indicates.

“WRITING FOR YOU” is Amazon’s #1 Free Book on “Writing Skills”!

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The sunrise was mostly veiled, hidden behind the curtain of grey.

I raced towards the horizon, hoping to out run the clouds. They thickened but I didn’t stop. My feet hit a steady rhythm.

To look back was a shock; I had journeyed to some remote place.


I wrote this prompted by the word remote from Flash in the pan. I took a different meaning to the word but I hope you enjoyed it 🙂

Thank you; A look into what gratitude means to me

Thank you

I often use those words and yet, they may have lost some of their meaning along the way. To be really grateful for what someone has done, doesn’t it mean that their act will stay in your mind for a while, should I not dwell on this act of kindness that I have thanked them for?

I guess there are, in fact, many levels to the simple line. If a stranger holds open a door, I thank them kindly and mean what I say and it’s true that in some ways that act does follow me through the day. I will feel a lift in mood and how I react to stressful situations may greatly differ to what I would have acted like, had that unknown person not opened that door. But yet it doesn’t stick with me, I am not thinking over it.

To take a larger example would be to say I’m thankful for my husband’s support and love; this can have little to no meaning however if I am not acting this way. Words alone do not show the depths of gratitude and I will often be drawn to doing some act or other (such as baking), just to show my husband I’m grateful.

Too often though, the things people do go un-noticed. I have friends who work hard to help their friends; they give time, money and effort to help and yet, in my opinion, they are often undervalued and un-thanked as people just expect it of them now. It’s just who they are. No. People do wonderful things by choice and those choices deserve at least a five second response of thanks.

With all this depth to the word gratitude, I have been inspired to think about my characters in my WIP. How have my characters shown a depth or roundness to themselves? Do they interact with the world around them?

More importantly, how does the world interact with them? Is there a day when a simple smile or opened door gives a boost of joy? I often get so taken away by writing the main dramatic events that my work reads like a dull journal, to inject some life I could perhaps try and make sure there is some sort of give and take between characters and their world.

Just as complex and original each mind is, shouldn’t my characters also be?



What do you think? Should characters always be complex with depth and a detailed interaction with the world around them?

How do you create an in depth, 3D, character?

NaNoWriMo comparisons between writers; Is it good or bad?

First of all I am so sorry for my absence. I am writing more than I ever have before as I decided to take part in NaNoWriMo or Nation Novel Writing Month. I am happy with progress so far but it really got me thinking, do you compare your work with others or do you set goals for your writing and try improve your bests?

For NaNo I have been chatting on a special chat room just for my area (Go Liverpool!) and have met many wonderful people, but we are all very different. We write for a set fifteen minuets and then share with everyone how many words we achieved. But should we compare with others?

I find that a little comparison can give me great boost of motivation, but mostly speaking I do not advise too much comparisons with other writers. Each of us has a different method for writing and a different speed and I think that’s great, something to be celebrated! 🙂

If you write for the enjoyment of it then does it matter if someone else writes faster? If you write slower does it really matter if you are still meeting your own goals? I find it far more exciting when i smash my daily word goal or manage to write more in the set fifteen minuets than i usually do. You see the difference is that i try hard to compare myself with ME. So I know if i’ve done better than usual or if i’m having a bad day, not because i’m way behind one person (who’s perhaps written nearly 50k already) but because of comparing myself with what I usually achieve.



So what do you guys  think? Is it better to compare yourself with others or do you think comparison with yourself is a healthier way to go? Let me know your thoughts 🙂